Monday, August 28, 2017

The Making of a Sociopath



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February of 2002
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It is February of the year 2002.  Much has happened in the United Kingdom, including the 50th Anniversary of King George VI’s death as well as the death of Queen Elizabeth’s sister, Princess Margaret.

Those and other events occurring around the world go virtually unnoticed by Sophie O’Brian.  She is eighteen years old and at the point in her life when she needs to decide what she wants to do with the rest of her life.  Most teenagers her age would be conflicted right now, not sure what to do with the rest of their lives, or they wouldn’t really care at all, being more concerned with boys than anything else.

Sophie is different.  She knows exactly what she wants to do with her life.  Mark O’Brian, her older brother, ran away from home to train to become a professional wrestler.  She wants to do the same.  She wants to follow her brother into the so-called “sport of kings” and show the world that it can also be a “sport of queens” as well.

There is one catch, one minor obstacle in her path that keeps holding her back: her parents.

It isn’t necessarily her mother that is the problem.  Her mother, Linda O’Brian, has always been very supportive of Sophie and her brother with whatever they chose to do.  She has always been there for them, through thick and thin.  The problem has been with their father, George O’Brian.

George O’Brian is not the ideal, poster-boy for fatherhood.  George is an abusive drunk who routinely beats Linda.  He would also routinely beat the children, Sophie and Mark.  Mark, though, grew sick and tired of it and chose to do something about it.  He worked out with weights regularly and began his wrestling training with Glenn Braddock on the side.  Then one day, when George tried to beat Mark, Mark fought back, leaving his father a battered, bruised mess.

From that day forward Mark would no longer stay with his parents.  He ran off, got a job, and an apartment close to the Braddock Wrestling School on the outskirts of London, England.  Sophie, though, stayed behind, for she still had no way out of the situation.  But her dream, her desire to become a wrestler, would never die.

Sophie would visit her brother from time to time, as she is doing on this day in February of 2002.

She finds herself sitting alone in a rather sparsely furnished living room.  It isn’t long before her brother Mark enters the room and sits down next to her on the raggedy brown sofa.  He has two bottles of water in his hand, one of which he hands to Sophie and the other he keeps for himself.

“Here ya go.”

She studies the water bottle for a moment before looking up at him, frowning.  “Water?  Is that all you have, Mark?”

“I got beer, sure, but you’re not legal yet.”

She reaches back and slaps him in the back of his head.  “I am eighteen years old, idiot!”

“Oh…want me to go back and get a beer?”

She sighs, shaking her head.  “No, this will do.  It would probably be a bad idea to have alcohol in my system, considering the state of mind I am in right now.”

Mark arches his brow.  “What do you mean by that?”

“Oh nothing.”  She pauses momentarily.  “You know, I do envy you sometimes.”

“You envy me?”  He snickers.  “You complimented me, that’s a bloody first.  At least I think it is….”

The brunette does her best to contain her frustration as she nods her head.  “Yes, Mark, it was a compliment.  I hope your feeble little brain can remember this moment in time because times like this are a rarity.  To envy means that I covet your advantages, I wish I were in your situation.”

“Pffffft, some situation I’m in.”  He rolls his eyes.  “You can see the hole I’m living in.”

“At least you have a hole all your own to live in.”  She snaps back.  “It may not be much, but at least it is a place to live.”

“You have a place, Sophie.”  Mark points out.

“Yes, I do, and it is hell on earth.”

Mark is about to respond but something about his sister catches his eye.  He stops to study her for a moment.  His usual, laid back attitude changes in an instant into one of anger and rage as he points over at Sophie’s face.

“Where did that bruise come from?”

“…..it doesn’t matter.”

“Yes it does!”  Mark shoots up , standing over Sophie now, looking rather intimidating.  “Did that son of a bitch hit you again?!”

Some women enjoy a good cry.  Not Sophie.  She views it a sign of weakness and the last thing she wants to be seen as is weak.  But she is unable to hold back the single solitary tear that begins to form in her eyes.

“Yes.”

“Son of a bitch….” Mark’s voice trails off.  He starts to pace the floor before his voice flares up again.  “….I’m going to kill him.”

“Mark, no…”

“I am going to kill him!”

“Oh for God’s sake, Mark, shut your trap!”  Sophie snaps back at him, standing up herself, getting in front of Mark to stop his pacing.

“He hit you, Sophie.  NO ONE hurts my sister!  NO ONE!”

“Your concern is touching, and somewhat frightening at the same time, but touching nonetheless.  However, I must advise you, that having assault on your record won’t exactly help you in your career as a wrestler.”

Mark knows she speaks the truth.  As much as he would love to march down to the old homestead and beat George into a bloody pulp, he realizes that doing so would be foolish.  So he takes a few deep breaths and finally calms himself down.

“Fine, Sophie.  You win.”

“Good, now sit back down.”

The two siblings sit back down on the raggedy brown sofa.  “Is that why you came, Sophie?”

“Partially, yes.”  She nods her head.  “Truth is, Mark, I have grown weary of it all.  Mum and I have tried and tried to reach out, especially mum, and each time he responds with violence.”

“I think maybe its time I teach you something.”

Sophie blinks a few times.  “You teaching me something?  That’s a first!”

“Oh shut up!”  He snarls.  “Fact is, if talking to the bastard isn’t working, maybe you should fight violence with violence.”

“You think so?”

“I know so.  Look, I know you want to be a wrestler.  You told me so before.  I have the same dream, only difference between us is that I was brave enough to step out George’s iron fist and learn the trade.”

“So are you suggesting that I learn to defend myself?”

He nods his head.  “Exactly.  Hell, you can even join the Braddock Wrestling School.”

Sophie throws her head back and laughs.  “Don’t me make laugh, Mark!  You know I don’t have the cash on me to fund that!”

“I don’t either.  It takes every bit of my paycheck to keep this place going.”

Sophie frowns.  “Ok, so how are you managing to stay in Glenn Braddock’s Wrestling School?

“Don’t go spreading it around, but he’s not charging me anything.”

“Really?”

He nods his head.  “Glenn knows full well the abusive asshole our father is; and since we are real good friends with his daughter, old man Braddock figured he would help out in any way he can.”

Sophie once again is finding it difficult to find back her tears.  She and Glory were good friends.  Glenn himself was a legend in the United Kingdom for his Greco-Roman amateur wrestling skills.  To hear that this legend would be willing to help her and her brother out was quite touching, touching enough to even melt the icy heart of Sophie O’Brian.

“Do you think he would let me go to his school for free?”

“I know he would.”

Mark places firm hands on his sister’s shoulders.  “Sophie, come to the wrestling school.”

“It’ll be difficult to do so underneath the radar of father.”

“I don’t know what that means, but if dad’s a problem, then lie.  Lie about where yer going.  It will be worth it, because once you have learned the necessary offensive tactics, use them against the old man.  Use them against George.”


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Present Day
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Sun Tzu says, “The art of war, then, is governed by five constant factors, to be taken into account in one's deliberations, when seeking to determine the conditions obtaining in the field.  These are:  The Moral Law; Heaven; Earth; The Commander; Method and discipline.”

When engaging in combat, be it short term such as a wrestling match or a long term goal I seek to achieve, I always look towards famous military leaders and knowledgeable strategists for wisdom.  The one I look towards the most in Sun Tzu, a Chinese general, military strategist, and philosopher who lived in the Spring and Autumn period of ancient China.

I have been studying Sun Tzu’s teachings and writings for a long time now.  I can quote much of it by heart.  For most of my deliberations, most of my decision making, I always rely on the steady hand and steady mind of Sun Tzu to guide me towards the best path.

Sun Tzu spoke of five constant factors, the first being The Moral Law.  My moral law states that “an eye for an eye” is an absolute truth.  It is a maxim that cannot be erased.  Thus when Angelica Jones and her sister Kayla sent the tag team career of myself and my brother Mark into a tailspin, it was necessary by the moral law that I get revenge, that I send her own career into a tailspin.

Defeating Angelica Jones on Breakdown was beautiful, but knowing that I took a Television title opportunity away from her was even better.  The Sisterhood’s career is in a tailspin and I just made it worse.  Sweet revenge that sent me into my heaven, my bliss, the second constant factor; a feeling of accomplishment knowing a goal has been achieved.

Now I must transition, for while one goal has been met, another goal is in my sights.  The challenge of winning the SCW Television Championship is a lofty one in and of itself, and I would be quite proud of adding that trophy to my mantle.  But that is just the materialistic goal, the earth if you will, the third constant spoken of by Sun Tzu.

The real accomplishment here would be overcoming the great Ravyn Taylor, an SCW stalwart who is known for her mind games.  It has been a while since I have been able to match wits with someone who is, arguably, my better.  I’m not sure I would go as far as to say she my better in terms of the mind games, but we shall find that out, won’t we?  The best commander, the fourth of the constants spoken of by Sun Tzu, that individual will reign supreme.  That is my goal; to prove myself as the superior strategist.

And I will get the job done, because I have the method and the discipline to dethrone her, the fifth constant.

It’s funny, looking back at my history, at my own life, it is a wonder that I even made it here in the first place.  Had my beloved mother and that drunken bastard of a father had their way, I would never have become a wrestler in the first place.  I’m here primarily because of my brother Mark and my trainer Glenn Braddock.  I suppose I should be more grateful to Mark.  I suppose I should be nicer to him.  It’s difficult.   I don’t want to show weakness.  But Mark knows it.  He understands me.

He is one of the few who truly do understand me.

There was another obstacle in my path, an obstacle that threatened my career again just a few years ago.  His name was Tony Morgan and he is my deceased ex-husband.

It’s dark outside in a gloomy, creepy cemetery.  Lightning can be seen flashing in the background the wind can be heard howling off in the distance.  Leaves are blown about and while most of the headstones in the cemetery are upright and stable, others look as if they could topple over any moment, they look in total disarray.

The figure off in the distance walking around the headstones is me.  I’m wearing a long black cloak.  You cannot tell what I have on underneath and due to the poor lighting and black cloak in the dark one can barely make out my facial features.  I come to a stop at a particular headstone.  I throw the hood of the cloak off of my head and I kneel down to read the inscription on the headstone…

“Antonio Maurice Morgan”

…Tony Morgan for short.

“Oh Tony, my dear sweet Tony…” tears form in my eyes but I fight them back, I cannot show weakness and tears are a sign of weakness “…I know you like it when I come to visit you.”

A chuckle escapes my lips as I shake my head. “Oh who am I kidding?  You’re probably none too happy to see me right now, are you Tony?  But for what it is worth, I am truly sorry…”

I nod my head “…yes, I am sorry that it turned out the way it did.  It just wasn’t meant to be between the two of us.  But God, I miss you…because you…”

I point at the headstone “…you are one of the few who truly understood me.  You reached into my head and pulled out thoughts and feelings that I believed were long dead and you brought them back to life.  That little girl my abusive drunk of a father murdered…you reached into my head and you found her…

A long pause escapes my lips “…you found her…” tears once more form in my eyes, this time I can no longer fight back the tears as they start to flow freely down my cheek I pound away angrily with my bare fists on the tombstone.

“You did this to me, you son of a bitch!  You brought this side of me out in the open!  You made me weak and it’s your fault!” I shake my head and sigh “That’s why I had to kill you.”

I close my eyes and think back to just a few short years ago…

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March of 2014
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It is early in the morning, so early that still no sunlight has managed to peek in from the clouds.  The darkness still rules the sky outside and yet I am awake.  Enthralled by the feeling I experienced tonight in this bed I am lying in, a comfortable king size bed in a secluded, special place that no one knows exists but me and one other individual.  I am dressed in a red one piece strappy lace halter teddy with cutout sides that shows just the right amount of skin and mixes romance with seduction for an unforgettable night with my partner, not Tony Morgan my husband but instead with my mistress Abigail Lindsey.

“Funny, a year ago I was hiding in a closet watching you and Tony ‘make love,’ a year later I find myself where I wanted to be from the minute I laid eyes on you.”

I roll over and stare deep into her eyes.

“Fact is, Abigail, I do love Tony.  But he cannot give me what I need.  He cannot satisfy the craving that I have.”I kiss her on the nose.“Only you can satisfy the carnal desires I have.”

I never have been good at expressing my feelings and emotions.  Being beaten and abused as a child caused that.  But being with Tony has helped me in that department.  More and more I have become an emotional human being and perhaps that is how Carolyn Rose York managed to sneak her way in past my psychological defenses?  Oh well, she’s dead now.  No matter anymore.  All that matters is me and this woman lying next to me, Abigail Lindsey, who smiles back at me.

“I aim to please.”

A faint laugh escapes my lips.“Strangely enough, you have Carolyn Rose York to thank for this.  You know?”

“I’ve made a living taking advantage of the opportunities presented to me, why stop now?”

“Carolyn was smart, too smart for her own good.  She thought she could control the darkness living inside me.  Truth is, all she did was unleash it.  And you, my sweet…”

I gaze down at her chest, which shows plenty of cleavage through the cover.  After a moment’s pause I take a lick before looking back up with a look of mischief.

“You are the one who gets to dance with my darkness while Carolyn can rot in the grave I put her in...quite literally might I add.  She makes a better corpse than a human being.”

“So how does it feel? Not the sex... talking to me like this? About dead bodies, rotting corpses, murder.”

I roll back over, facing away from her now.  A sigh escapes my lips.

“Perfectly normal.  You see, Abigail, the hardships that I endured throughout my life created what amounts to almost be two different personalities.  One part of me is the normal, dutiful wife of Tony Morgan.  The other is my darkness, a monster I created as a child to protect myself.  Tony cannot handle the darkness.”

Tears start to form in my eyes and I am thankful I am turned away from Abigail so she does not see me crying.

“He would not want that side of me.  He’s made that clear already.  I have to have an outlet.  Otherwise that darkness will take total control and all hell will break loose.  Wrestling...and you...are those outlets.”

“I hate to be a buzzkill, Sophie, we both know secrets have an unpredictable way of coming into the light. I have no intention of sharing our nights together with anyone, what happens if this comes out? Hard to imagine a traditional man like Tony will understand our arrangement.”

Abigail is quite right and I hate to admit it.  Damn I hate to admit it but she is right about that.  I swing my legs off the bed and push myself up.  I walk over to the dresser and place my hands on it, my face looking down at the floor before looking back up into the camera, my eyes red from the tears.

“This darkness is growing more and more powerful by the day.  If this comes out…”I pause.“...when this comes out, I will murder Tony.  Not that I want to, but I will be completely helpless to stop myself from doing so.”

“But, if you love him, shouldn’t that be enough to stop you? Or is love conquering all one big lie?”

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Present Day
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I open my eyes, staring back at the tombstone in front of me.  A sadistic grin forms on my face.

“I guess love doesn’t conquer all.  Perhaps I should tell Abigail?” I snicker nastily. “And yet, still a part of me feels something…is it, dare I say, regret?  Remorse?  Guilt?”

I sigh deeply as I shake my head. “I did what I had to do, Tony.  I hope you understand but one of us had to go because I could not live the life of the person you were turning me into.  I cannot be that person.  I never will be that person.”

I chuckle. “If anything, I’ve become an even worse monster since our relationship came to its abrupt halt.  I have gone out of my way to ruin lives, to destroy people, to recruit followers into my own…well…you would call it a cult following, Tony.  I prefer to think of them as like minded individuals.”

I stand up and pat myself on the chest. “Now I have an opportunity to reclaim my lost glory, a glory I lost shortly after my relationship with you began, by the way.  Not that I’m blaming you in any way, Tony.”

I shake my head. “Oh no, I am not blaming you for my downward spiral.  But I do know that you never really supported my wrestling career.  You said you were ok with it, that you loved me and supported me no matter what I wanted to do, but I know the truth.  I’m not stupid.  I can put two and two together.

The tears once again well up in my eyes. “You wanted the traditional housewife.  The stay at home domesticated little bitch.  That’s what my mum was, and she got her ass kicked routinely by my father.”

I shake my head. “There was no way in hell that was going to happen.  Did you honestly believe I would let that happen to me?  Did you honestly believe I would allow myself to get into that situation?  I just performed a preemptive strike.  That’s all.  I killed you before you could do anything to me, because after all, you  would have eventually hurt me.”

I bow my head in shame. “That’s all husbands and boyfriends are good for, right?”

The grin slowly returns to my face. “It’s ok, Tony.  I will defeat Ravyn Taylor on Breakdown to become the SCW Television Champion, then I will bring the belt back here, and show it to you as evidence that everything I did…including ending your life…was all worth it…”

With a nod of my head I turn around, pull the hood of the cloak back over my head, and I start to walk away.


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On Camera
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It truly does take a great deal to impress someone such as myself.  But knowing that I go up against Ravyn Taylor for the SCW Television Championship…well, I am honored, for her own accomplishments are quite extraordinary.  She has the historic United States Title reign, she is a former world champion, and she currently has what shall soon become my property.

That’s right, Ms. Taylor, understand that while I will give credit where credit is due, I will also leave no doubts as to my intentions.  Veni, vidi, vici…I came, I saw, I conquered.  Or perhaps that should be in future tense?  I don’t want to get too ahead of myself.

I will come to Breakdown in Charlotte, North Carolina…I will see you across that ring, Ravyn…and yes, I will conquer you…mark my words.

Is it arrogant of me to make such a bold prediction?  You have beaten so many of the greats in SCW, what can this little SCW newcomer do to you?

Sun Tzu says, “the clever combatant imposes his will on the enemy, but does not allow the enemy's will to be imposed on him.”

Your best weapon, Ms. Taylor, is your mind games.  Those mind games that you play throw everyone off, allowing you to slip in and take your shot whenever you want, allowing you to dictate the terms of battle.

Whether you realize it or not, you face an intellectual equal.  Whether you realize it or not, you face someone who is just as good at mind games as you are.  I won’t be thrown off by of your trickery or chicanery.  You will have to outwrestle me, Ravyn.

Now I do not want to imply that you cannot outwrestle me.  You most certainly can and you do have that skill.  No one gets to the level you are based on mind games alone.   But I am quite the grappler myself.  I was trained by the elite of Greco-Roman amateur wrestling.  Submission wrestling, mat wrestling, that’s my specialty.  I can slow the pace down and pick you apart piece by piece.

Sun Tzu says, “Hence to fight and conquer in all your battles is not supreme excellence; supreme excellence consists in breaking the enemy's resistance without fighting.”

I don’t need to defeat you, Ravyn.  Well, I guess I do in the strictest of terms, if I want to be the Television Champion.  But figuratively speaking, I do not need to defeat you.  You very well could defeat yourself.  Or someone could defeat you for me.

After all, will you really and truly be focused entirely on Sophie O’Brian in Charlotte, North Carolina for Breakdown?  Are you really going to be focused on defending that championship against the new kid on the block when you have a chance to make history just around the corner at Apocalypse against Sienna Swann in the final SCW Women’s Championship Match ever?

Honestly, my dear, ask yourself, are you in the right frame of mind for this SCW Television Championship defense?  Are you prepared for the challenge that yours truly presents?  I could do what everyone does and blandly warn you not to overlook me, not to look past me, that I am dangerous…blah, blah, blah…

…but I won’t bore you or anyone else with what is typically said by every other wrestler on this roster.  Instead I say go right ahead, look past me.  Overlook me.  Sienna Swann is far more important than I am.  You go right on protecting that Women’s Championship.  You make history, my dear.

Meanwhile I’ll be digging into the trenches preparing for an invasion.  I will prepare for war.  I will prepare to take what I want…the spoils of war…

…I will take the SCW Television Championship.

Saturday, August 19, 2017

vs. Angelica Jones




Sun Tzu says, “If ignorant both of your enemy and yourself, you are certain to be in peril.”

I know precisely who and what I am.  I am a sociopath and I do not hide it.  I do not just live in the darkness, I embrace the darkness; a darkness that I know doesn’t just define me but IS me.

Now I realize that most would label me as an oddity, but in reality I am the most human of all of the human species.  Let’s face facts, ladies and gentlemen; the problem with the human species on this planet is that each and every one of you are just like me and you just won’t admit it.  You are either ignorant of yourself or you are in denial of who you really are.

In the case of Angelica Jones I know her, I know my enemy, and I know that when she gazes into a mirror she is disgusted and ashamed at what she sees.  She is ashamed of the monster that she sees looking back at her when she looks into the mirror.

You are right, Angelica.  I did follow you and your sister here to Supreme Championship Wrestling, but it isn’t just to get revenge against you for you defeating my brother and I for the GDW World Tag Team Championship.  I followed you because I wanted to make a point and by making my point, I also get my revenge at the same time.

Killing two birds with one metaphorical stone.

You and your sister were the anti-authority cutthroats marching under the Free Botswana banner until you decided that it served your best interests to bend to the whims of the fans, of SCW corporate, and society as a whole. They didn’t like who you had become and they voiced their displeasure and what did you do?

You folded like a tent and decided to give them the version of The Sisterhood that they wanted, all under the guise of a “redemption journey” trying to win back public support.

Oh but you, Angelica, you are the worst offender of them all.  You claim to have turned over a new leaf.  You claim that you want to be a better person and that you do not want to be remembered as a monster.  You say this knowing what you’ve done in the past.

I will not judge you, Angelica, for I know I’ve done terrible things myself.  But I will let your own past judge you.

In GDW you set Stacy Singer on fire.

You judge Mark and I for trying to break Kayla’s neck when there was a time when you damn near ended her career with a back injury.

You tried to break Selena Frost’s arm out of its socket.

Oh and we can’t forget the coup de grace.  You once faked your own death.  I wonder how that made your daughters feel?

Speaking of your daughters, what about sweet Kimberly Williams; the one you neglected for damn near her entire life until just recently?  No wonder she turned into a nut-case.

Yet here you are now claiming that you wish to get rid of The Dragon…that monster that lurks within you….oh that is a joke, Angelica.  It is a joke, and not a very good one, because the fact is that you are and always will be a monster.

You didn’t get rid of the monster, Angelica.  You didn’t get rid of The Dragon.  You’re just masking it under a façade of goodness.  You are a faker, perhaps the biggest faker in this entire wretched company.  And yes, it did make me feel good knowing that I potentially cost the Sisterhood a shot at the SCW World Tag Team Championship.

You and Kayla both need that gold in order to define yourselves and you, specifically, need to know that you are a good person and that you are not the monster you once were.  Thus it will be my greatest revenge to not only defeat you on Breakdown and thus get my victory back from when you took the GDW World Tag Team Championship away from me, but in the process expose to the world and, more importantly, expose to the world that you have not changed…that you are still a monster.

You’re right, for a while it did eat me alive knowing that The Sisterhood had gotten the best of Total War.  But here I now stand ready to take something away from you that you value more than even championship gold.  I stand ready to take something away from you that I dare say is more important to you than even this potential Television Championship Match that will go to the winner…

…I will take away the mask that hides your true self.  By the time I’m done with you at Breakdown, there will be no denying that you are just as dark and evil as I am.  There will be no denying that your pathetic little redemption journey was indeed just a dog and pony show for the masses.

Ruining your reputation, destroying what little sanity you created for yourself, and dragging you kicking and screaming back into the darkness is just the kind of revenge I need.  You will be ruined, Angelica, and then I shall regain my championship status.  I will move on and challenge for the SCW Television Championship.  I will claim it as mine.